This is my story. Part tragedy, of self inflicted agony that rests deep within me. The blame weighs heavy, such indulgence to when i think of what it is to me.
Removed, numbed silenced.
Can I really walk this way knowing what has happened.
Sickened by the feeling that I may just never…what is this feeling that I now live.
It’s strange and cold and empty and self indulged and so much worse than all those lies.
No words describe how I can’t look you in the eyes, a fraud, a cheat, I’m cruel and weak. I have no explanation to how this came to be, a sentence of death is handed to me, I got what I deserved, a life I cannot reverse.